That Gentle Nudge

One of the biggest themes floating around the internet at the last few days are pictures, laced with quotes, all about believing in yourself. In holding your head high and trusting in you. Reminding you that, though things are rough, and though there are other out there intent on bringing you down and making you fall, that you are worth it. That you alone are worth it. These quotes, these pictures have always been there, I’m sure, but only recently, it seems, they have fought their way to the surface to inspire those who are in desperate need for some reassurance.

To be entirely honest, here on the internet in a sea of strangers and friends alike, I admit to it. I need those reminders at the moment. I need those uplifting quotes and pictures reminding me that I am special, that I am worth it, because honestly? I don’t feel it. And I haven’t in a long time.

I’ve felt lost and alone for quite some time, and it doesn’t help when things start looking brighter that I get swept kicked off my feet and shoved head first into another pit I hadn’t noticed before. But… It’s just the nature of my life, or so it seems. A huge part of me is resigned to the fact that I’ll probably never feel like I’m worth something, like I’m supposed to be here. Like there’s something in this life I’m meant to do.

But then, last night, scrolling through the book of face, I came across those little nudgings. And… though I am still far from being happy, from accepting myself, I do feel a little encouraged. Maybe it’s not all that bad. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll figure something out, and be able to climb out of this pit. Eventually. It’s hard, yes. But, then again, anything worth doing is.

Isn’t it?